Daily Motivational Quote

Diagnosis: PCOS

Today I was diagnosed with PCOS or Polycystic Ovarian Syndrome, which is a hormone imbalance that causes you to not have periods, high blood pressure and not to mention makes it very hard to get pregnant. PCOS is related to insulin resistance and some doctors think that that could be a cause of it. PCOS is very common and can affect 1 in 15 women. My doctor wants to manage it with weight loss until I lose most of my weight, then will put me on some  medication to help me get pregnant if we decide to have another baby. So if anyone has any good tips on losing weight with PCOS I’d love to hear them.

Defeat & Making Time for Me

“But there is suffering in life, and there are defeats.  No one can avoid them.  But it’s better to lose some of the battles in the struggles for your dreams than to be defeated without ever knowing what you’re fighting for.”
~ Paulo Coelho

Lately I’ve been feeling awfully defeated. It seems like nothing good ever happens to us. Anything that can go wrong, usually does. I look at others that I know and it seems that life comes so easily for them. They don’t struggle like we have the entire time we have been together. Money falls in their laps, they can easily pay their bills and nothing seems to get in the way of them doing what they want. And yet there’s us. Nothing seems to ever go our way.

I know, it could be worse, but just once I’d like to get a break. I’m terribly stressed and depressed at where I am in life. I can’t find a job, which should be easy given my education, but its not. I mean seriously, 100 applications and nothing? I’m not kidding. I am so thankful for my friends and family, they are keeping me sane.

I am hoping that 2010 will be better for us. I am so tired of struggling for every little thing and want to move on and acutally finally get somewhere in life. I want to will lose weight and get healthy. I will work hard to overcome my depression so I can be a better wife, mother and friend.

I know my struggle with depression has led to my weight gain and my lack of motivation to follow through and do it again. I know what I need to do, but can’t seem to find the spark to get me through more than a couple of days. I really need to focus on myself and not give so much of me to others. I know that I shouldn’t feel guilty for doing so, but it is still difficult to get it done.

Next year will be different.

“Finish each day and be done with it. You have done what you could. Some blunders and absurdities no doubt crept in; forget them as soon as you can. Tomorrow is a new day; begin it well and serenely and with too high a spirit to be encumbered with your old nonsense.”
— Ralph Waldo Emerson

SparkPeople

I have been working on updating my SparkPeople pages and working on getting my plan in order so that I can start really focusing on losing weight in the next year. The biggest hurdle that I’m going to have is getting the right things to eat. My roommate is on a low-carb diet, so she thinks I should do that with her. I have tried it in the past with no luck, so I’m trying to convince her that we can both do our own plans, its not going so well. Does anyone else have this issue of two different diets? How do you work it out? Please let me know.

If you would like to be my weight loss buddy, look me up on SparkPeople, my ID is tinkygurl! For those of you who are unfamiliar with SparkPeople, it is a community for weight loss and fitness. It offers a meal plan, food tracker, journal, appointment book, articles, message boards, groups and much more! Its a total source for information, motivation and support. Set your goals and get reports on how you are doing.

Free Christmas Music

Amazon.com has Christmas music downloads for free! With more than 1,000 songs available for download, you’ll have enough music to last you until next year! LOL

Check out all of the songs available here.